Start over, my darling. Be brave enough to find the life you want and courageous enough to chase it. Then start over and love yourself the way you were always meant to.
Let’s talk about starting over. New beginnings. Fresh outlooks. Because the fact is that most of us happily stick in our rut. It requires a change of thinking, a transformation of our processes, and the foundation of who we are to fix things that we cringe away from the idea of change. For me, I did not know how to shift my path.
I used to believed that I would be stuck and remain that way for the rest of my life. Stuck in this black hole of sorrow and despair. I never thought I would escape the hold depression had over me. Some days still drag me down and in, as all black holes do, if I’m being honest. Some days are a battle to get out of bed, to work, to take care of myself, yet I focus on viewing each sunrise as an opportunity to start over.
In grade school, the principle used to say that every day is a new start. While I knew this and whole-heartedly agreed, I did not fully comprehend the impact it would have on me in the coming years.
The Black Hole
High school was the pit. This is not the time or place to get into the nitty-gritty of it all, however… I had smiled and stewed, and one day it erupted out of me in a flash. They told me it was expulsion or counseling. Counseling won.
At first, I hated the idea of sitting with a stranger and discussing everything that was going on. If I could not figure it out, why would they be able to? With time, I realized she was not there to figure it out for me. She was there to help me consider new ways of evaluating situations, healthier ways of coping, and to be an outlet for my frustrations.
While depression and panic attacks still grip me from time to time, it is far rarer because I know better ways to manage and solve the triggers that stir up such negativity in my life. Each day, I remind myself that, while crappy things might happen throughout the day, that does not mean my day has to be crap. It’s all in how I respond to the situations.
Start Over, My Darling
I wrote this piece as a reminder to myself. Start Over, My Darling was something I could read as a reminder that yesterday’s struggles do not equal today’s trials.
I wrote this piece for me. I shared this piece for you.
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